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Dropped July 27, 2010 (OOC Post notification)

The Riku Replica (

cardoperatedboy): 9,418 comments, played from 2006-12-02 to 2010-07-27 (1,333 days at 7 comments/day)

Left around for a very few of the people the Riku Replica had some good OR bad ~feeeeelings~ about are some letters.

To Roxas

Take care of Naminé. She deserves it.

To Sora

Heading out to try to have a few adventures of my own. I'm really sure I'll see you again sometime. So don't forget me this time!!

To Riku
What do I even say here? Come find me sometime or I'll find you. Maybe by then I really will be better than you, in all kinds of ways, instead of just being like you.

...it's not that you're bad to be like.

It's just that I want to really define a 'me' for me to be like, too.

To Demyx
Yeah, mail me your annual income next year, loser, we'll see who's laughing then.

To Tsuna
Thanks for hanging out with me ...pretty much the whole time we've both been here. You're a cool guy. Don't let the future freak you out, and who knows, maybe we'll meet up again sometime.

To Naminé

I love you. I'll always love you, okay? I'll say that here if nowhere else. Don't let anyone else read this! These words are just for you.

I know my memories together with you, growing up with you, swearing to protect you -- I know they're not real. They're not even mine and not real. But that feeling's never left. I feel it right now, 100%. It's not a memory. It's a fact. And that's -- that's something I've been struggling with, like, forever... how can something be completely fake, completely made up, but completely real too? Because I've never doubted my feelings for you. I've doubted their origins, sure. But not the feelings themselves. I can't doubt my feelings for you. Because they're always everywhere in me. Always pounding through me. I love you. I want to protect you. From everything.

So maybe there's an answer there. I don't know.

But I can't have you.

I've been trying to cope with this. And I can't! Because I want you. I love you. I know you even care about me! But I can't stand being second. I can't stand just sitting by and knowing that you feel things for other people, that I'm sharing time and space with someone else. And that's me. That's my problem, which is why I've tried to shut up and cope with it. The source is pretty damn obvious. I'd have to be stupid not to realize why I feel that way. Because I'm not original; I'm a copy. My place in people's hearts has always been fake. And even when I've earned something real for myself, it doesn't feel that way to me if anyone else is there. I'll always move back to being a shadow. And, Naminé, I don't know if I can ever stand to be anything but the only thing you see, because you're the person I want the most to see me as real, and you're the person I'm most afraid will pick someone else over me.

So it's time for a change. I'll never stop loving you, and I'll never stop wanting to protect you, but I'm going to go off and find myself. Zexion said I could come along and help him out with some things. Maybe this means that I'm really just a tool of the Organization again. I don't know. But it'll be a change of pace and maybe, when I'm learning more about life out there, and doing more like that... maybe I'll learn to overcome myself.

[...and, of course, he's the opposite of stealthy, so if anyone wanted to catch him depositing said letters, they could.]

My Kingdom Hearts fics

( Reports that mention the replica and the relevant parts of the replica program in 358/2 )

( Or, the epic tale of Jaxel and Rosas )

( Cut for 358/2 Days spoilers )

IKKI: A picture of birds in flight.

TSUNA: A photo he snapped of the mafia on a casual day, framed. Gokudera and Haru are tsunning at each other, Yamamoto's laughing, Tsuna's looking overwhelmed, etc etc.

ZEXION: A large sampler of loose teas of a wide variety.

IMOEN: THE CONTENTS OF HIS POCKETS AT THE TIME >(

ETNA: A diary. It's locked. :) -- on forcing open, it's empty AND FOR YOUR USE.

NAMINE: This necklace.

KAIRI: This bracelet.

RIKU: Ambivalent feelings

SORA: A paopu-shaped charm. You probably don't remember it.

VEXEN: A photograph of the sky.

Total list:EVA
Umeda
Marluxia
Riku Replica
Heat
Lexaeus
Jinana
Collector Manikin
Sakubo

Feel free to respond; if IC lemme know and we can thread ♥

( Disney's House of Villains )

( ID )

OKAY SO below these cuts are the list of gifts that my characters gave others. I would love to thread giving them if people want to! The comments to this post can be treated as IC threads, amirite. I miss RP. Of course, saying that, I'll also be slow as molassas since I'm borrowing computer time, and if I answer from work tomorrow you'll get a lot of repeated default icon, so forgive me for that *wg*. But. You know.

( From Umeda, to: Axel, Kazu, Mizuki, Zexion, Enjolras, Agito, Akito, Emiri, Ikki, Gojyo, Chizuru, Maladict, Nakatsu, Simon, Himejima, Spitfire )

( From Hibari, to: Reborn )

( From Marluxia, To: Larxene, Axel, Haru, Bulma, Zexion, Kairi, and Sora )

( From Lexaeus, to: Zexion, Mafia Cave )

( From Heat, to: Serph, Roland, Rinali, Himawari, Allen, Ginshu, and Cordelia )

( From the Riku Replica, to: Sora, Tomo, Kairi, Zexion, Tsuna, Riku, Cordelia, Imoen, Gokudera, Ikki, Luke, and Larxene )

Aaaaugh, wrote this a few days ago, putting it here so I don't lose it. Totally AU -- a combination between the AUverse with Zexion and the post-CFUD ficverse and not really canon for either anyway, b-but. The idea wouldn't go away so I wrote it anyway. :x

( The End is the Beginning )

....okay I'll try to do one of these, orz.

Um, special request though -- I often have trouble remembering which of my characters have met which of yours, so when you reply, please be like "I'd like you to give your character x's opinion on my characters y and z" instead of like "Your characters on all my characters!". I mean, if all my characters know all of yours, that's possible, but. Also please list your relevant characters' names when you do so because i even like. Forget some of Zazzle's characters sometimes. *g*

Also, if you want to return fire after that'd be cool but not necessary.

ETA: Mine are Umeda, Marluxia, The Riku Replica, Heat, and Alec.

Replica: ....I want Replica/Adell slash
Zexion: You have my sympathies XD
Replica: You do too, huh?
Zexion: It's one of my shounen retard OTPs
Zexion: Has been for... a good long while XD

...So anyone want to help us out? :DDDD

[From here]

What did you do that for?! This was way more important than some stupid dare!

Oh yeah I should have mentioned a hiatus -- moving time. I'm actually going at a good pace so I may still be around, but I want to cover my hot hot ass.

Riku (11:34:27 PM): riku is n't really against clones in GENERAL
Riku (11:34:30 PM): he likes luke =D
Riku (11:34:33 PM): just. not the fake =D
Riku Replica (11:34:33 PM): Only when they happen to him, huh
Riku (11:34:40 PM): pretty much yes
Riku (11:34:48 PM): specifically
Riku (11:34:52 PM): clones that keep trying to kill him
Riku Replica (11:34:52 PM): "I DON'T HATE CLONES, SOME OF MY BEST FRIENDS ARE CLONES"
Riku (11:34:54 PM): and steal his life
Riku Replica (11:34:55 PM): Excuse me, you started that
Riku Replica (11:34:58 PM): DO NOT WANT YOUR LIFE
Riku Replica (11:34:59 PM): GOD
Riku (11:35:15 PM): THEN STOP TRYING TO KILL ME AND MAKE FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS
Riku (11:35:18 PM): I MIGHT BELIEVE YOU THEN
Riku Replica (11:36:28 PM): I LIKE YOUR FRIENDS. THAT'S DIFFERENT -- WHY WOULD I WANT THE LIFE OF A COWARDLY WEAK-WILLED EASILY-POSSESSED SELF-CENTERED WORLD-DESTROYING GRADE-A ASSHOLE?
Riku (11:36:57 PM): THAT'S JUST THE THING. I WOULDN'T WANT TO BE ME SO WHY THE FUCK DO YOU.
Riku Replica (11:37:01 PM): I DON'T, OBVIOUSLY
Riku (11:37:08 PM): SO GO AWAY
Riku (11:37:15 PM): AND GO START YOUR PRETTY NEW NON-RIKU LIFE
Riku Replica (11:37:14 PM): NO BITCH. NOT UNTIL YOU GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!
Riku (11:37:25 PM): AND LEAVE ME TO MY EMO
Riku (11:37:44 PM): THIS IS WHY I HAVE TO KEEP KILLING YOU
Riku Replica (11:37:56 PM): YOU WANNA FIGHT?

[...]

Riku Replica (11:38:24 PM): S-stop shutting me out man
Riku (11:38:34 PM): IF I LET YOU IN
Riku (11:38:36 PM): YOU TRY TO KILL ME
Riku (11:38:44 PM): AND YOU KNOW
Riku (11:38:46 PM): I'D OFF YOU
Riku (11:38:47 PM): BUT
Riku Replica (11:38:46 PM): YOU STARTED IT
Riku (11:38:48 PM): YOU WON'T
Riku (11:38:49 PM): STAY DEAD
Riku (11:38:55 PM): I DID NOT
Riku (11:38:57 PM): YOU ATTACKED ME
Riku Replica (11:39:37 PM): BUT WITHOUT THE INTENT TO KILL
Riku Replica (11:39:41 PM): YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS ALL
Riku Replica (11:39:47 PM): "THERE WON'T BE A NEXT TIME, I'MMA KILL U NOW"
Riku (11:40:07 PM): YOU KNOW
Riku (11:40:09 PM): SHOWING UP
Riku (11:40:12 PM): LOOKING JUST LIKE ME
Riku (11:40:14 PM): INSULTING ME
Riku (11:40:18 PM): AND BEING A GENERAL BITCH
Riku (11:40:24 PM): AND THEN ATTACKING ME!!!
Riku (11:40:29 PM): DOES NOT SOMEONE OBLIGATE ME
Riku (11:40:31 PM): TO NOT KILL YOU
Riku (11:40:34 PM): WHEN I HAVE THE CHANCE
Riku (11:40:44 PM): *SOMEHOW
Riku (11:41:05 PM): and you would have killed me had you been able to
Riku Replica (11:41:06 PM): WELL YOU KNOW SOMETHING
Riku (11:41:10 PM): you just fail
Riku Replica (11:41:12 PM): MAYBE IF YOU DIDN'T KILL EVERYONE
Riku Replica (11:41:15 PM): AS A DEFAULT SETTING
Riku Replica (11:41:23 PM): YOU'D HAVE A LITTLE LESS EMO
Riku (11:41:26 PM): PEOPLE SHOULD NOT ATTACK YOU
Riku (11:41:29 PM): AND EXPECT TO NOT DIE
Riku (11:41:30 PM): THAT'S JUST DUMB
Riku Replica (11:41:36 PM): "I want to get off this island."
"Let's make a raft."
"okay!" [KILLS EVERYONE]
Riku Replica (11:41:41 PM): WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE, REAL THING?
Riku (11:41:44 PM): fhasdjlfhsfa
Riku (11:41:59 PM): I FELT BAD FOR THAT OKAY
Riku (11:42:08 PM): AND HAVE MOVED PAST IT
Riku (11:42:13 PM): BUT STILL FAKES
Riku (11:42:16 PM): WHO ATTACK ME
Riku (11:42:18 PM): DIE
Riku (11:42:22 PM): I THINK THIS IS QUITE REASONABLE
Riku Replica (11:42:32 PM): AND YOU DON'T THINK MAYBE YOU'RE BEING A LITTLE BIT TOTALLY RETARDED AND, OH, OPENING YOUR HEART TO ANSEM?
Riku (11:43:04 PM): THE DARKNESS IS MY STRENGTH \o/ NAMINE SAID SO
Riku Replica (11:43:10 PM): SUBMIT
Riku (11:43:23 PM): TO BE PERFECTLY FAIR
Riku Replica (11:43:21 PM): SUBMIT
Riku (11:43:27 PM): I PRETTY MUCH ONLY KILL YOU
Riku Replica (11:43:25 PM): SUBMIT
Riku (11:43:28 PM): SO

...the moment I get heat paid, I get a message that the replica's paid account/icons are going to expire.

S-so. I feel bad about this, but I'm about to move across the country and, uh, buy myself a new computer. Laptop. S-so. If anyone can help me out with the replica, I'd love you forever and also totally write you a drabble of your choice. ♥?

EDIT: O -- o shit I shouldn't have gone to bed, sorry guys. BUT ALSO THANK YOU! Anonymous, inwolfclothing, its_the_mask, maeritrae, what would you like? :)

Hey! Let's talk.

Hey, bell girl! Let's talk. Sound innocent at me or something.

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