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Left around for a very few of the people the Riku Replica had some good OR bad ~feeeeelings~ about are some letters.



To Roxas

Take care of Naminé. She deserves it.



To Sora

Heading out to try to have a few adventures of my own. I'm really sure I'll see you again sometime. So don't forget me this time!!



To Riku
What do I even say here? Come find me sometime or I'll find you. Maybe by then I really will be better than you, in all kinds of ways, instead of just being like you.

...it's not that you're bad to be like.

It's just that I want to really define a 'me' for me to be like, too.



To Demyx
Yeah, mail me your annual income next year, loser, we'll see who's laughing then.



To Tsuna
Thanks for hanging out with me ...pretty much the whole time we've both been here. You're a cool guy. Don't let the future freak you out, and who knows, maybe we'll meet up again sometime.



To Naminé

I love you. I'll always love you, okay? I'll say that here if nowhere else. Don't let anyone else read this! These words are just for you.

I know my memories together with you, growing up with you, swearing to protect you -- I know they're not real. They're not even mine and not real. But that feeling's never left. I feel it right now, 100%. It's not a memory. It's a fact. And that's -- that's something I've been struggling with, like, forever... how can something be completely fake, completely made up, but completely real too? Because I've never doubted my feelings for you. I've doubted their origins, sure. But not the feelings themselves. I can't doubt my feelings for you. Because they're always everywhere in me. Always pounding through me. I love you. I want to protect you. From everything.

So maybe there's an answer there. I don't know.

But I can't have you.

I've been trying to cope with this. And I can't! Because I want you. I love you. I know you even care about me! But I can't stand being second. I can't stand just sitting by and knowing that you feel things for other people, that I'm sharing time and space with someone else. And that's me. That's my problem, which is why I've tried to shut up and cope with it. The source is pretty damn obvious. I'd have to be stupid not to realize why I feel that way. Because I'm not original; I'm a copy. My place in people's hearts has always been fake. And even when I've earned something real for myself, it doesn't feel that way to me if anyone else is there. I'll always move back to being a shadow. And, Naminé, I don't know if I can ever stand to be anything but the only thing you see, because you're the person I want the most to see me as real, and you're the person I'm most afraid will pick someone else over me.

So it's time for a change. I'll never stop loving you, and I'll never stop wanting to protect you, but I'm going to go off and find myself. Zexion said I could come along and help him out with some things. Maybe this means that I'm really just a tool of the Organization again. I don't know. But it'll be a change of pace and maybe, when I'm learning more about life out there, and doing more like that... maybe I'll learn to overcome myself.




[...and, of course, he's the opposite of stealthy, so if anyone wanted to catch him depositing said letters, they could.]

Date: 2010-07-28 04:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
[wherever you are, comes up to]

Riku?

Date: 2010-07-28 05:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
[picks it back up to hand to him]

...Going somewhere?

Date: 2010-07-28 05:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
Where to?

[then, seeing him try to hide the letters, it starts to dawn on her]

...!

Date: 2010-07-28 05:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
[takes it and stares at the envelope for a moment]

Date: 2010-07-28 06:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
I'll miss you... Thank-you for being here.

Date: 2010-07-28 08:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
This won't be the last time we see each other.

Date: 2010-07-30 03:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
[sighs... then lifts away for some space and pokes him lightly on the chest. it's more playful than accusatory.]

You were going to leave without letting me say good-bye.

Date: 2010-07-30 06:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoathforgotten.livejournal.com
You should have someone here to wish you well before leaving.

Date: 2010-07-28 04:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
[Riku was up getting a midnight snack when he noticed the familiar scent - and the sound of someone moving in the other room.

it wasn't like the Replica to sneak in, so Riku did a little sneaking of his own, lurking in the shadows to watch, just to see what he was up to.

when he saw the notes, he had a pretty good idea.]

...

Time to move on?

Date: 2010-07-28 04:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
[steppin out of the shadows now]

No one really does, do they...

Date: 2010-07-28 05:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
[...just chuckles lightly]

So, any plans for where you're going?

Date: 2010-07-28 05:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
So you're going together... That's good.

Date: 2010-07-28 05:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
[what okay, holds it at his side]

Got it.

Date: 2010-07-28 05:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
Sure, no problem. Just leave it to me.

Date: 2010-07-28 06:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
Yeah, I think I can handle it.

Date: 2010-07-28 06:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adawningoath.livejournal.com
[punches him lightly in the shoulder] Just go, you jerk.

...

And take care of yourself.

Date: 2010-07-28 05:58 pm (UTC)
accepts: (huh.)
From: [personal profile] accepts
[isn't a very sound sleeper at times]

Hey!

Date: 2010-07-28 11:26 pm (UTC)
nocturnemission: (*poof*)
From: [personal profile] nocturnemission
[Daaaark portal!]

Hey, what's this note supposed to mean?

Date: 2010-07-30 02:50 am (UTC)
nocturnemission: (that doesn't seem quite right)
From: [personal profile] nocturnemission
Wait... You mean you're leaving leaving?

Date: 2010-07-30 02:58 am (UTC)
nocturnemission: (is it supposed to be that color?)
From: [personal profile] nocturnemission
Wow... So, uh... congratulations?

Date: 2010-07-30 05:12 am (UTC)
nocturnemission: (Ahem. I have important things to say.)
From: [personal profile] nocturnemission
It's just too bad I won't be there to share my well-travelled wisdom with you.

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