[IC thread continuation]

[cardoperatedboy]

[From here]


What did you do that for?! This was way more important than some stupid dare!

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[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Is the outside where you wish to be?

[cardoperatedboy]

I dunno. It's lonely.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Then probably not. Still, your problem is something I can understand. Forming friendships is never an easy thing, but it is harder when you are the last person to have entered entered the group.

[cardoperatedboy]

It's...not just... maybe I'm a little jealous.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Of who?

[cardoperatedboy]

Gokudera. If you tell him that, I'll kill you.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Because of Tsuna?

[cardoperatedboy]

Because of Tsuna, and he's... really bright, and things come naturally to him. I want to be better than him, but it's just a lie.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

If Gokudera himself were to hear that, he would never believe you.

[cardoperatedboy]

That doesn't make it less true. Gokudera's the sort of person who couldn't just vanish.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Gokudera is exactly the sort of person who could. Each of you has your strengths, but neither of you has any concept of your own self-worth.

[cardoperatedboy]

No. People would miss him.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

People would miss you as well.

[cardoperatedboy]

No... I know this one.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

That may have been true for you once, but it isn't true anymore.

[cardoperatedboy]

I don't think you're right about that.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

It's too late for you to stop it.

[cardoperatedboy]

I think you're deluding yourself a little. I wouldn't be missed.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

[nudges the bento box with his finger]

If your presence isn't something important, then why do others remember you when you're not around?

[cardoperatedboy]

Like who? I'm not gonna vanish entirely from their memories every time I go out for dinner or anything, but if I went away? I'd be nothing. Again.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Adell is the most obvious, if you are looking for specifics. But right now, I don't think you're ready to believe that it's possible.

[cardoperatedboy]

Adell? Nah. Adell'd be like "I started a new game, so anyone who was in the old game is kinda retconned out of my life." We're friends now, but if I vanished, I'd really vanish as far as he was concerned.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Did the people from his last game vanish?

[cardoperatedboy]

Well, he saw nothing wrong with replacing Axel with ... me. Which I'm fine with, but you know.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

However, it certainly doesn't seem like Akutare was forgotten.