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Dec. 19th, 2006 04:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cardoperatedboyThe replica's almost normal when he's not thinking about Riku all the time. But -- when Riku comes up he destabalizes. And this is partly because he's by necessity of two minds of the issue of what to do about Riku.
See, the original part of him, the part that was its unique person doesn't want to be compared to Riku. It's never liked Riku; it mostly planned to overcome him to prove a point. It never really planned to kill him, so much as make an example of him; it only fought Riku for the first time because Vexen told him to, but during the course of the fight it became personal when Riku implied he was better than the replica by virtue of not being fake. That side wanted to prove Riku wasn't. Riku HAS to live just long enough to realize that, at least.
The part of him they fucked with and convinced to believe he WAS Riku, down to a completely formed past and childhood -- it needs to eliminate Riku entirely. While Riku is there it can't exist, because it casts discord. Two versions of the same person can't both be real, after all. And even if the Replica knows this side of itself is faked, it responds to it still, as we see through its responses to Namine.
Annnd the replica after the fact is a burdened, deeply wounded mish mash of tattered remains of both and doesn't know why it's feeling any of its feelings, what side it comes from, it just knows it all comes down to Riku.
And it wants to make the pain stop.
Half Jack - the Dresden Dolls
Half underwater
I'm half my mother's daughter
a fraction's left up to dispute
the whole collection
half off the price they're asking
in the halfway house of ill repute
Half accidental
Half pain, full instrumental
I have a lot to think about
You think they're joking?
You have to go provoke him...
I guess it's high time you found out
It's half biology and half corrective surgery gone wrong
you'll notice something funny if you hang around here for too
long ago in some black hole before they had these pills to take it back
I'm half jill
and half jack
Two halves are equal
a cross between two evils
It's not an enviable lot
but if you listen
you'll learn to hear the difference
between the halfs and the half ...nots
And when I let him in I feel my stitches getting slicker
I try to wash him out but like she said: the blood is thicker
I see my mother in my face
but only when I travel
I run as fast as I can run
but
Jack comes tumbling after....
And when I'm brave enough and find a clever way to kick him out
and I'm so high not even you and all your love could bring me down
on 83rd he never found the magic words to change this fact:
I'm half jill
and half jack
I'm halfway home now
Half hoping for a showdown
Cause I'm not big enough to house this crowd
It might destroy me
but I'd sacrifice my body
if it meant i'd get the jack part
out
see
jack
run
jack
see
jack
run
jack
see
jack
run
See, the original part of him, the part that was its unique person doesn't want to be compared to Riku. It's never liked Riku; it mostly planned to overcome him to prove a point. It never really planned to kill him, so much as make an example of him; it only fought Riku for the first time because Vexen told him to, but during the course of the fight it became personal when Riku implied he was better than the replica by virtue of not being fake. That side wanted to prove Riku wasn't. Riku HAS to live just long enough to realize that, at least.
The part of him they fucked with and convinced to believe he WAS Riku, down to a completely formed past and childhood -- it needs to eliminate Riku entirely. While Riku is there it can't exist, because it casts discord. Two versions of the same person can't both be real, after all. And even if the Replica knows this side of itself is faked, it responds to it still, as we see through its responses to Namine.
Annnd the replica after the fact is a burdened, deeply wounded mish mash of tattered remains of both and doesn't know why it's feeling any of its feelings, what side it comes from, it just knows it all comes down to Riku.
And it wants to make the pain stop.
Half underwater
I'm half my mother's daughter
a fraction's left up to dispute
the whole collection
half off the price they're asking
in the halfway house of ill repute
Half accidental
Half pain, full instrumental
I have a lot to think about
You think they're joking?
You have to go provoke him...
I guess it's high time you found out
It's half biology and half corrective surgery gone wrong
you'll notice something funny if you hang around here for too
long ago in some black hole before they had these pills to take it back
I'm half jill
and half jack
Two halves are equal
a cross between two evils
It's not an enviable lot
but if you listen
you'll learn to hear the difference
between the halfs and the half ...nots
And when I let him in I feel my stitches getting slicker
I try to wash him out but like she said: the blood is thicker
I see my mother in my face
but only when I travel
I run as fast as I can run
but
Jack comes tumbling after....
And when I'm brave enough and find a clever way to kick him out
and I'm so high not even you and all your love could bring me down
on 83rd he never found the magic words to change this fact:
I'm half jill
and half jack
I'm halfway home now
Half hoping for a showdown
Cause I'm not big enough to house this crowd
It might destroy me
but I'd sacrifice my body
if it meant i'd get the jack part
out
see
jack
run
jack
see
jack
run
jack
see
jack
run
