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[cardoperatedboy]

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What did you do that for?! This was way more important than some stupid dare!

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[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Though there has been less idle time of late.

[cardoperatedboy]

You've been busy with your cave and stuff.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

More with the person outside it. Though I did take some time to encourage both Tsuna's group and Ikki's that it would be in their best interest to spend some time keeping the area between our residences in good order.

[cardoperatedboy]

Yeah, and building the door and working with the security systems and probably moving the beds into an arrangement that better harmonizes with the world order.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Security systems?

[cardoperatedboy]

Well, you know, door access lists, it's catchier when listed the other way. ....why didn't you deny the bed thing.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

That's just part of what the door is; it is easier than a lock and the bother of keys.

The only rearranging I did of the beds were the modifications to my own. Speaking of which, now that the cave is going to be expanded, would you like a separate bed for yourself?

[cardoperatedboy]

But the point stands.

...I dunno, maybe.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Only partially.

I will assume so unless you tell me otherwise.

[cardoperatedboy]

Whatever.

....Do what you like.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

... what's wrong?

[cardoperatedboy]

Nothing. Nothing's changed.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Those are two very different statements.

[cardoperatedboy]

I guess... I just don't like being around normal people very much. I always feel... on the outside.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Is the outside where you wish to be?

[cardoperatedboy]

I dunno. It's lonely.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Then probably not. Still, your problem is something I can understand. Forming friendships is never an easy thing, but it is harder when you are the last person to have entered entered the group.

[cardoperatedboy]

It's...not just... maybe I'm a little jealous.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Of who?

[cardoperatedboy]

Gokudera. If you tell him that, I'll kill you.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Because of Tsuna?

[cardoperatedboy]

Because of Tsuna, and he's... really bright, and things come naturally to him. I want to be better than him, but it's just a lie.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

If Gokudera himself were to hear that, he would never believe you.

[cardoperatedboy]

That doesn't make it less true. Gokudera's the sort of person who couldn't just vanish.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Gokudera is exactly the sort of person who could. Each of you has your strengths, but neither of you has any concept of your own self-worth.