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[cardoperatedboy]

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What did you do that for?! This was way more important than some stupid dare!

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[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Security systems?

[cardoperatedboy]

Well, you know, door access lists, it's catchier when listed the other way. ....why didn't you deny the bed thing.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

That's just part of what the door is; it is easier than a lock and the bother of keys.

The only rearranging I did of the beds were the modifications to my own. Speaking of which, now that the cave is going to be expanded, would you like a separate bed for yourself?

[cardoperatedboy]

But the point stands.

...I dunno, maybe.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Only partially.

I will assume so unless you tell me otherwise.

[cardoperatedboy]

Whatever.

....Do what you like.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

... what's wrong?

[cardoperatedboy]

Nothing. Nothing's changed.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Those are two very different statements.

[cardoperatedboy]

I guess... I just don't like being around normal people very much. I always feel... on the outside.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Is the outside where you wish to be?

[cardoperatedboy]

I dunno. It's lonely.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Then probably not. Still, your problem is something I can understand. Forming friendships is never an easy thing, but it is harder when you are the last person to have entered entered the group.

[cardoperatedboy]

It's...not just... maybe I'm a little jealous.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Of who?

[cardoperatedboy]

Gokudera. If you tell him that, I'll kill you.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Because of Tsuna?

[cardoperatedboy]

Because of Tsuna, and he's... really bright, and things come naturally to him. I want to be better than him, but it's just a lie.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

If Gokudera himself were to hear that, he would never believe you.

[cardoperatedboy]

That doesn't make it less true. Gokudera's the sort of person who couldn't just vanish.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

Gokudera is exactly the sort of person who could. Each of you has your strengths, but neither of you has any concept of your own self-worth.

[cardoperatedboy]

No. People would miss him.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

People would miss you as well.

[cardoperatedboy]

No... I know this one.

[cloakanddaikon.livejournal.com]

That may have been true for you once, but it isn't true anymore.